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LORD,
Thou hast cast this world beneath the shadow of a
dream,
An',
taught by time, I tak' it so---exceptin' always
Steam.
From
coupler-flange to spindle-guide I see Thy Hand, O
God---
Predestination in the stride o' yon connectin'-rod.
John
Calvin might ha' forged the same---enorrmous,
certain,
slow---
Ay,
wrought it in the furnace-flame---my ``Institutio.''
I
cannot get my sleep to-night; old bones are hard
to please;
I'll
stand the middle watch up here---alone wi' God an'
these
My
engines, after ninety days o' rase an' rack an'
strain
Through
all the seas of all Thy world, slam-bangin' home
again.
Slam-bang too much---they knock a wee---the
crosshead-gibs are
loose,
But
thirty thousand mile o' sea has gied them fair
excuse. ...
Fine,
clear an'dark---a full-draught breeze, wi' Ushant
out o'
sight,
An'
Ferguson relievin' Hay. Old girl, ye'll walk
to-night!
His
wife's at Plymouth. ...
Seventy---One---Two---Three since he
began---
Three
turns for Mistress Ferguson ... and who's to blame
the
man?
There's
none at any port for me, by drivin' fast or slow,
Since
Elsie Campbell went to Thee, Lord, thirty years
ago.
(The
year the Sarah Sands was burned. Oh roads we used
to tread,
Fra'
Maryhill to Pollokshaws--fra' Govan to Parkhead!)
Not but
that they're ceevil on the Board. Ye'll hear Sir
Kenneth
say:
``Good
morn, McAndrew! Back again? An' how's your bilge
to-day?''
Miscallin' technicalities but handin' me my chair
To
drink Madeira wi' three Earls---the auld Fleet
Engineer
That
started as a boiler-whelp---when steam and he were
low.
I mind
the time we used to serve a broken pipe wi' tow!
Ten
pound was all the pressure then---Eh! Eh!---a man
wad drive;
An'
here, our workin' gauges give one hunder
sixty-five!
We're
creepin' on wi' each new rig---less weight an'
larger
power;
There'll be the loco-boiler next an' thirty miles
an hour!
Thirty
an' more. What I ha' seen since ocean-steam began
Leaves
me na doot for the machine: but what about the
man?
The man
that counts, wi' all his runs, one million mile o'
sea:
Four
time the span from Earth to Moon. ... How far, O
Lord from
thee
That
wast beside him night an' day? Ye mind my first
typhoon?
It
scoughed the skipper on his way to jock wi' the
saloon.
Three
feet were on the stokehold-floor---just slappin'
to an'
fro---
An'
cast me on a furnace-door. I have the marks to
show.
Marks!
I ha' marks o' more than burns---deep in my soul
an'
black,
An'
times like this, when things go smooth, my
wickudness comes
back.
The
sins o' four an' forty years, all up an' down the
seas.
Clack
an' repeat like valves half-fed. ... Forgie's our
trespasses!
Nights
when I'd come on to deck to mark, wi' envy in my
gaze,
The
couples kittlin' in the dark between the
funnel-stays;
Years
when I raked the Ports wi' pride to fill my cup o'
wrong---
Judge
not, O Lord, my steps aside at Gay Street in
Hong-Kong!
Blot
out the wastrel hours of mine in sin when I
abode---
Jane
Harrigan's an' Number Nine, The Reddick an' Grant
Road!
An'
waur than all---my crownin' sin---rank blasphemy
an' wild.
I was
not four and twenty then---Ye wadna judge a child?
I'd
seen the Tropics first that run---new fruit, new
smells, new
air---
How
could I tell---blinf-fou wi' sun--- the Deil was
lurkin'
there?
By day
like playhouse-scenes the shore slid past our
sleepy
eyes;
By
night thos soft, lasceevious stars leered from
those velvet
skies,
In port
(we used no cargo-steam) I'd daunder down the
streets---
An
ijjit grinnin' in a dream---for shells an'
parrakeets,
An'
walkin'-sticks o' carved bamboo an' blowfish
stuffed an'
dried---
Fillin'
my bunk wi' rubbishry the Cheif put overside.
Till,
off Sambawa Head, Ye mind, I heard a land-breeze
ca',
Milk-warm wi' breath o' spice an' bloom: ``McAndrew,
Come
awa'!''
Firm,
clear an' low---no haste, no hate---the ghostly
whisper
went,
Just
statin' eevidential facts beyon' all argument:
``Your
mither's god's a graspin' deil, the shadow o'
yoursel',
``Got
out o' books by meenisters clean daft on Heaven
an' Hell.
``They
mak' him in the Broomielaw, o' Glasgie cold an'
dirt,
``A
jealous, pridefu' fetich, lad, that's only strong
to hurt.
``Ye'll
not go back to Him again an' kiss His red-hot rod,
``But
come wi' Us'' (Now who were They?) ``an' know the
Leevin'
God,
``That
does not kipper souls for sport or break a life in
jest,
``But
swells the ripenin' cocoanuts an' ripes the
woman's
breast.''
An'
there it stopped: cut off: no more; that quiet,
certain
voice---
For me,
six months o' twenty-four, to leave or take at
choice.
'Twas
on me like a thunderclap---it racked me through
an'
through---
Temptation past the show o' speech, unnameable an'
new---
The Sin
against the Holy Ghost? ... An' under all, our
screw.
That
storm blew by but left behind her anchor-shiftin'
swell.
thou
knowest all my heart an' mind, Thou knowest, Lord,
I
fell---
Third
on the Mary Gloster then, and first that night in
Hell!
Yet was
Thy Hand beneath my head, about my feet Thy
Care---
Fra'
Deli clear to Torres Strait, the trial o' despair,
But
when we touched the Barrier Reef Thy answer to my
prayer!
...
We
wared na run that sea by night but lay an' held
our fire,
An' I
was drowsin' on the hatch---sick---sick wi' doubt
an'
tire:
``Better the sight of eyes that see than wanderin'
o' desire!''
Ye mind
that word? Clear as gongs---again, an' once again,
When
rippin' down through coral-trash ran out our
moorin'-chain:
An', by
Thy Grace, I had the light to see my duty plain.
Light
on the engine-room---no more---bright as our
carbons burn.
I've
lost it since a thousand times, but never past
return!
Obsairve! Per annum we'll have here two thousand
souls aboard---
Think
not I dare to justify myself before the Lord,
But---average fifteen hunder souls safe-born fra'
port to
port---
I am o'
service to my kind. Ye wadna blame the thought?
Maybe
they steam from Grace to Wrath---to sin by folly
led---
It isna
mine to judge their path---their lives are on my
head.
Mine at
the last---when all is done it all comes back to
me,
The
fault that leaves six thousand ton a log upon the
sea.
We'll
tak' one stretch---three weeks an odd by ony road
ye
steer---
Fra'
Cape Town east to Wellington---ye need an
engineer.
Fail
there---ye've time to weld your shaft---ay, eat
it, ere
ye're spoke;
Or make
Kergueen under sail---three jiggers burned wi'
smoke!
An'
home again---the Rio run: it's no child's play to
go
Steamin'
to bell for fourteen days o' snow an' floe an'
blow.
The
beergs like kelpies oversde that girn an' turn an'
shift
Whaur,
grindin' like the Mills o' God, goes by the big
South
drift.
(Hail,
Snow and Ice that praise the Lord. I've met them
at their
work,
An
wished we had anither route or they another kirk.)
Yon's
strain, hard strain, o' head an' hand, for though
Thy
Power brings
All
skill to naught, Ye'll underatand a man must think
o'
things.
Then,
at the last, we'll get to port an' hoist their
baggage
clear---
The
passengers, wi' gloves an' canes---an' this is
what I'll
hear:
``Well,
thank ye for a pleasant voyage. The tender's comin'
now.''
While I
go testin' follower-bolts an' watch the skipper
bow.
They've
words for every one but me---shake hands wi' half
the
crew,
Except
the dour Scots engineer, the man they never knew.
An' yet
I like the wark for all we've dam' few pickin's
here---
No
pension, an' the most we'll earn's four hunder
pound a year.
Better
myself abroad? Maybe. I'd sooner starve than sail
Wi'
such as call a snifter-rod ross. ... French for
nightingale.
Commeesion on my stores? Some do; but I cannot
afford
To lie
like stewards wi' patty-pans. I'm older than the
Board.
A bonus
on the coal I save? Ou ay, the Scots are close,
But
when I grudge the strength Ye gave I'll grudge
their food to
those.
(There's bricks that I might recommend---an' clink
the firebars
cruel.
No!
Welsh---Wangarti at the worst---an' damn all
patent fuel!)
Inventions? Ye must stay in port to mak' a patent
pay.
My
Deeferential Valve-Gear taught me how that
business lay.
I blame
no chaps wi' clearer heads for aught they make or
sell.
I found
that I could not invent an' look to these as well.
So,
wrestled wi' Apollyon---Nah!---fretted like a
bairn---
But
burned the workin'-plans last run, wi' all I hoped
to earn.
Ye know
how hard an Idol dies, an' what that meant to
me---
E'en
tak' it for a sacrifice acceptable to Thee. ...
Below
there! Oiler! What's your wark? Ye find it runnin'
hard?
Ye
needn't swill the cup wi' oil---this isn't the
Cunard!
Ye
thought? Ye are not paid to think. Go, sweat that
off again!
Tck!
Tck! It's deeficult to sweer nor tak' The Name in
vain!
Men, ay
an' women, call me stern. Wi' these to oversee,
Ye'll
note I've little time to burn on social repartee.
The
bairns see what their elders miss; they'll hunt me
to an'
fro,
Till
for the sake of---well, a kiss---I tak' 'em down
below.
That
minds me of our Viscount loon---Sir Kenneth's
kin---the
chap
Wi'
Russia leather tennis-shoon an' spar-decked
yachtin'-cap.
I
showed him round last week, o'er all---an' at the
last says
he:
``Mister McAndrew, Don't you think steam spoils
romance at
sea?''
Damned
ijjit! I'd been doon that morn to see what ailed
the
throws,
Manholin', on my back---the cranks three inches
off my nose.
Romance! Those first-class passengers they like it
very well,
Printed
an' bound in little books; but why don't poets
tell?
I'm
sick of all their quirks an' turns---the loves an'
doves
they dream---
Lord,
send a man like Robbie Burns to sing the Song o'
Steam!
To
match wi' Scotia's noblest speech yon orchestra
sublime
Whaurto---uplifted
like the Just---the tail-rods mark the time.
The
crank-throws give the double-bass, the feed-pump
sobs an'
heaves,
An' now
the main eccentrics start their quarrel on the
sheaves:
Her
time, her own appointed time, the rocking
link-head bides,
Till---hear that note?---the rod's return whings
glimmerin'
through the guides.
They're
all awa'! True beat, full power, the clangin'
chorus
goes
Clear
to the tunnel where they sit, my purrin' dynamos.
Interdependence absolute, forseen, ordained,
decreed,
To
work, Ye'll note, at ony tilt an' every rate o'
speed.
Fra'
Skylight-lift to furnace-bars, backed, bolted,
braced an'
stayed.
An'
singin' like the Mornin' Stars for joy that they
are made;
While,
out o' touch o' vanity, the sweatin' thrust-block
says:
``Not
unto us the praise, or man---not unto us the
praise!''
Now, a'
together, hear them lift their lesson---theirs an'
mine:
``Law,
Orrder, Duty an' Restraint, Obedience,
Discipline!''
Mill,
forge an' try-pit taught them that when roarin'
they
arose,
An'
whiles I wonder if a soul was gied them wi' the
blows.
Oh for
a man to weld it then, in one trip-hammer strain,
Till
even first-class passengers could tell the meanin'
plain!
But no
one cares except mysel' that serve an' understand
My
seven thousand horse-power here. Eh Lord! They're
grand---they're grand!
Uplift
am I? When first in store the new-made beasties
stood,
Were Ye
cast down that breathed the Word declarin' all
things
good?
Not so!
O' that warld-liftin' joy no after-fall could vex,
Ye've
left a glimmer still to cheer the Man---the
Arrtifex!
That
holds, in spite o' knock and scale, o' friction,
waste an'
slip,
An' by
that light---now, mark my word---we'll build the
Perfect
Ship.
I'll
never last to judge her lines, or take her
curve---not I.
But I
ha' lived an' I ha' worked. Be thanks to Thee,
Most High!
An' I
ha' done what I ha' done---judge Thou if ill or
well---
Always
Thy grace preventin' me. ...
Losh! Yon's the ``Stand-by'' bell.
Pilot
so soon? His flare it is. The mornin'-watch is
set.
Well,
God be thanked, as I was sayin', I'm no Pelagian
yet.
Now,
I'll tak' on. ...
'Morrn, Ferguson. Man, have ye ever thought
What
your good leddy costs in coal? ... I'll burn 'em
down to
port.
Rudyard Kipling
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